Sunday, August 12, 2012
Many times in my life I have been sitting in conferences of one kind or another or worship services for many reasons and the speaker has started with something like this: "Just put all your concerns behind you and focus on God this weekend. Leave everything from home at the door and just worship here in this place for now. It will all be there when you get home, so just don't worry about it." I can't stand this philosophy. Even as recently as this morning I confessed an overwhelming feeling that I was having about the next couple of weeks and I was given a line of this sort. Just focus on leading worship right now and don't worry about tomorrow. Scripture was even quoted, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:14" The thing was, I was feeling overwhelmed today...My feelings were of today even though they may have stemmed from the future. The thing was, I wanted God to deal with me right now. today. I have long believed that it was too much ask, especially for women/mothers, to "leave it all behind and forget what's happening at home to focus on a worship service." We are inherent multi-taskers and often other concerns, particularly the ones that involve our family, children or homes, are very difficult to put aside for any amount of time. I have also long believed that God was fully capable of meeting me in the MIDST of my concerns, not outside of them. He did not disappoint this morning! One of the songs in the worship set this morning was Your Grace is Enough by Matt Maher. God totally met me during practice this morning. As we were running through that song, I was reminded that His grace is enough for me. However I am feeling, whatever I am going through, in the midst of it all, His grace is enough. I don't want to "check everything at the door" I want God to walk me through the door holding it all whispering to me that His grace is enough. So tomorrow morning starts my "back to school". I'll get up early tomorrow and go to work and for the next two weeks plus 180 school days, His grace will be enough.